Do you ever feel like what God has asked of you is just too big?
Here, let's downsize a little... Do you ever feel like your specific calling as a Christian, an ambassador for Christ in this world, is a little on the "ya I'd dream to do that, but I don't really expect it to ever come true" side?
I've been thinking about it lately... After years of praying and forgetting to pray for "career guidance" from God, He pretty blatantly told me over the span of a week this last semester in college that I was supposed to be a missionary... not just that, but a missionary to unreached peoples... not just that, but also in a psychologist/ counselor capacity.
Pretty intense right? I mean... we always pray that God would just be straightforward, that we would "hear His voice" more clearly, and we've grown to desire nothing but a straight and quick answer. Now, mind you, this answer has been three or four years of patience in the making, but He sure hit me smack dab between the eyes with this one.
Don't get me wrong, praise God that He saw fit to put a calling so strongly on my life that even I can't deny or shrink back from it when I feel just "too tired" or worn out to think about the long term and where all of this is going...
The fact is, though, that I often get the feeling that this is all too big... I mean, "Sure God, you've asked me to be a missionary, to share your hope, your reconciliation, your peace, your abiding love with the people of [country yet to be clarified when the time comes], but... I mean... are you sure?"...
And then the thoughts and the conversation trails off into a list as long as a roll of toilet paper running, hopping, bouncing, unravelling down a spiral staircase... just continually revealing the doubt after limitation after weakness that's within me.
But then I really think about it...
We all have limitless limitations, faults, doubts, and power issues in our lives.
None of us are capable of taking the gospel to a people and making them believe without God's help.
None of us are perfectly equipped for anything we are asked to do in this life...
I mean, look at David... he was asked by God to slay a giant... with a slingshot... I'd say he was pretty limited and poorly equipped for that feat, and yet God used that little boy to accomplish it!
Isn't that what it's all about? How could we ever learn anything if it weren't so?! It's in the testing of our limitations, the disciplining and "beating" of our bodies, as Paul puts it, that we become anything.
And even then... we aren't anything without the God who saved us.
This world, this plan, this thing that we call a Call may seem way too big for me, and that may daunt me at times, but that's the point. If I could do it all, there would be no power in it, because my power is nothing, and it won't impact a thing... but what God has been teaching me this past year is that at my weakest point, His power is at it's greatest, and it's those moments in which we can learn the most and make the biggest impact for God.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Saturday, January 8, 2011
To Sit and Listen
An Older man who grew up in England but, much to his demise, didn't begin to love cheese until later in life when he had moved away from that land of phenomenal cheeses. A woman in her later 80's in a flannel shirt who had just taken her Orange tabby cat with 3/4 inch length fur into the vet coming in to buy two ballerina ornaments for her 94 year old friend. The 94 year old Nina who used to be a ballerina and ballet teacher in Russia and has just been approved for 4 more years of using her driver's license. My Father telling me from experience to live towards and never forget my dreams and goals...
It's amazing what you can learn when you just sit and listen to people and their life experiences.
In fact, there may be no greater human agent than the bare truth of a person's testimonies.
It's amazing what you can learn when you just sit and listen to people and their life experiences.
In fact, there may be no greater human agent than the bare truth of a person's testimonies.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
India 7/26/2010
Hello dear friends and family members! Most of you already know, but God did bring my team and I back from India safely, three days ago. The past six weeks were so packed and such a blur that now that I’m back It’s sometimes hard to believe any of it even happened. But memories and pictures of all of the new, amazing people we got to meet there help keep it real.
In short, here is how our trip went down: Days 1-3 were flying and travelling days. We missed our connecting flight in London, so God blessed us with an entire afternoon exploring the beautiful city! After two more flights (around 20 hrs. flying in total), some complicated taxi rides, and a bus ride, we arrived safely at the Mission India Seminary in Nagpur, India. For the first week of our trip we attended chapel at the Bible College, got to know some of the staff and students there, spent time at the orphanage there, and also worked in their library (helping with cataloguing, organizing, etc.).
The campus was huge and beautiful, and the people there were such a blessing. Almost every student and faculty member that we talked to had insane testimonies about how God called them and drew them in by extreme healings and miracles. One of our friends named Poornima had been married to a Hindu man who beat her, had two children by the age of 16, and then was abandoned by her husband who took her two children and married another woman! Somehow in all of that difficulty and distress she found God and He called her out of her darkness and into the Mission India Bible College. Please pray for her, she still struggles with a lot of health issues and sadness from being separated from her children.
After those few days, we boarded a 16 hour, non-AC sleeper train (which was QUITE the adventure… let’s just say it was very hot and very over-crowded, all in all a rare and awesome experience) to Delhi, then switched train stations and took 6 hour AC train to Haldwani, India. We were picked up at the train station and transported to the Haldwani Mission India campus where we spent about 3 ½ weeks. There we met David and Bindu Lukos who run the campus and orphanage (the campus was one huge building that included the chapel and classroom, dorms for the orphanage and students and the Lukos’ house). Our team had hoped and expected to be able to do some outreach with the Hindu people in the area, but this did not end up happening. If the church does overt outreach, it is under cover due to persecution of the Christian church. But God showed us that there are so many other ways that He can use us!
So, while there, we got to participate in VBS, in the nightly campus chapels, got to play with the kids in the orphanage every day (there were around 25, and sadly 2 more were added to the original number while we were staying there), got to visit a leprosy colony and talk to the people there, got to minister and meet with Christians in various churches hidden in the city, and got to play with and feed a group of 20+ mentally handicapped men. We also got to teach Bible classes for a week! So, basically in every ministry that we did, God was breaking the false expectations that many of us, including myself, had.
I guess somewhere deep down I had this conception of what I thought a mission trip should look like(something with a lot more evangelism and a lot more hard manual labor) and was expecting to get to participate in things where the result and impact were “greater” or rather more readily seen. Whatever my conception was, it apparently did not include spending hours on end pushing children on swings, helping children with their homework, talking about the reason we were there only with Christian people, re organizing book shelves, or baking cookies that hardened into rocks. I truly believe that God did use us in a great way and that though our impact wasn’t the one we had “hoped” for, our very presence had one! What the Indian churches needed most was love and encouragement, not a building project. Thank God that this was His plan, and thank God for all He taught me through all of these little things, and for the other things He taught us…
… Like patience! In the first week in Haldwani our group was faced with the difficulties of overcoming the cultural and language barriers with our hosts. There were a lot of misunderstandings due to poor communication and the limited English speaking ability of the people on the Haldwani campus. But once we prayed, talked it out, and took up an extra measure of patience we were able to overcome the frustration and have a much more positive experience for the following weeks!
After our time in Haldwani we travelled back to Delhi where we took a bus to Agra for a day and saw… drum roll… THE TAJ MAHAL! It was beautiful… and I got to drive a bicycle rickshaw for a bit on the way back! ☺ We drove back to Delhi that night, stayed in a hotel, and then saw all sorts of famous sites in the city the next day. We saw some tombs and temples, including the tomb of Mahatma Gandhi.
After our sightseeing was done, we took two lovely AC sleeper trains back to Nagpur where we were welcomed by our old friends. It felt like we were being welcomed home ☺. We spent five more days on Nagpur campus, serving in the same ministries as before. On our last day, they had a goodbye ceremony for us and later some of the girls came by and gave all of us henna tattoos. We departed the night of the 22nd and had smooth travels and flight connections all the way through, which was quite the miracle in itself!
There is so much that I could say on the whole about this trip. The trip took all of us off guard and God broke all of our expectations, which turned out to be a great blessing once we processed through the initial frustrations. I can say without a doubt though that the past six weeks have taught me to be endlessly more thankful for every little thing in life. A big thing God taught me while I was gone was that I have so much to rejoice in and yet often focus on things that cause me not to. Even in the darkest times, at least I have a savior and a lover of my soul watching out for me and pulling me through. The Indian people we met have so much joy in even the smallest and simplest things, and amongst all of the difficulties and frustrations of travelling it was refreshing and encouraging to be reminded of the joy that is found in Christ.
I also learned a bit about spiritual warfare on this trip. In the midst of God working in my life and showing me the key to a joy-filled life, I felt great oppression, loneliness and even doubt in God and His truth. I’ve learned a lot through the process, including the importance of loving God with ALL my mind and strength. God has shown me a lot about the magnitude and reality of His love. Please pray for me as He brings me through this learning process! There may be pain in the night, but His joy comes in the morning!
Christ is sovereign and to be glorified in all that we do, even pushing a kid on a swing. He is our reward in heaven, we shouldn’t feel the need to or expect gratification from the things we do for God on this earth, though He is faithful and never fails to bless the lives of those who serve Him.
Praise God for all He did, all He is doing, and all the things He has yet to do! Thank you all for your blessing of praying for and financially supporting my team and I and for allowing me to have the honor of this awesome experience! As they say often in India: “God is good: all the time, all the time: God is good!”. (please check out www.teamindia2010.tumblr if you haven’t already).
With Love and Gratitude,
Kendall Robins :)
Hello dear friends and family members! Most of you already know, but God did bring my team and I back from India safely, three days ago. The past six weeks were so packed and such a blur that now that I’m back It’s sometimes hard to believe any of it even happened. But memories and pictures of all of the new, amazing people we got to meet there help keep it real.
In short, here is how our trip went down: Days 1-3 were flying and travelling days. We missed our connecting flight in London, so God blessed us with an entire afternoon exploring the beautiful city! After two more flights (around 20 hrs. flying in total), some complicated taxi rides, and a bus ride, we arrived safely at the Mission India Seminary in Nagpur, India. For the first week of our trip we attended chapel at the Bible College, got to know some of the staff and students there, spent time at the orphanage there, and also worked in their library (helping with cataloguing, organizing, etc.).
The campus was huge and beautiful, and the people there were such a blessing. Almost every student and faculty member that we talked to had insane testimonies about how God called them and drew them in by extreme healings and miracles. One of our friends named Poornima had been married to a Hindu man who beat her, had two children by the age of 16, and then was abandoned by her husband who took her two children and married another woman! Somehow in all of that difficulty and distress she found God and He called her out of her darkness and into the Mission India Bible College. Please pray for her, she still struggles with a lot of health issues and sadness from being separated from her children.
After those few days, we boarded a 16 hour, non-AC sleeper train (which was QUITE the adventure… let’s just say it was very hot and very over-crowded, all in all a rare and awesome experience) to Delhi, then switched train stations and took 6 hour AC train to Haldwani, India. We were picked up at the train station and transported to the Haldwani Mission India campus where we spent about 3 ½ weeks. There we met David and Bindu Lukos who run the campus and orphanage (the campus was one huge building that included the chapel and classroom, dorms for the orphanage and students and the Lukos’ house). Our team had hoped and expected to be able to do some outreach with the Hindu people in the area, but this did not end up happening. If the church does overt outreach, it is under cover due to persecution of the Christian church. But God showed us that there are so many other ways that He can use us!
So, while there, we got to participate in VBS, in the nightly campus chapels, got to play with the kids in the orphanage every day (there were around 25, and sadly 2 more were added to the original number while we were staying there), got to visit a leprosy colony and talk to the people there, got to minister and meet with Christians in various churches hidden in the city, and got to play with and feed a group of 20+ mentally handicapped men. We also got to teach Bible classes for a week! So, basically in every ministry that we did, God was breaking the false expectations that many of us, including myself, had.
I guess somewhere deep down I had this conception of what I thought a mission trip should look like(something with a lot more evangelism and a lot more hard manual labor) and was expecting to get to participate in things where the result and impact were “greater” or rather more readily seen. Whatever my conception was, it apparently did not include spending hours on end pushing children on swings, helping children with their homework, talking about the reason we were there only with Christian people, re organizing book shelves, or baking cookies that hardened into rocks. I truly believe that God did use us in a great way and that though our impact wasn’t the one we had “hoped” for, our very presence had one! What the Indian churches needed most was love and encouragement, not a building project. Thank God that this was His plan, and thank God for all He taught me through all of these little things, and for the other things He taught us…
… Like patience! In the first week in Haldwani our group was faced with the difficulties of overcoming the cultural and language barriers with our hosts. There were a lot of misunderstandings due to poor communication and the limited English speaking ability of the people on the Haldwani campus. But once we prayed, talked it out, and took up an extra measure of patience we were able to overcome the frustration and have a much more positive experience for the following weeks!
After our time in Haldwani we travelled back to Delhi where we took a bus to Agra for a day and saw… drum roll… THE TAJ MAHAL! It was beautiful… and I got to drive a bicycle rickshaw for a bit on the way back! ☺ We drove back to Delhi that night, stayed in a hotel, and then saw all sorts of famous sites in the city the next day. We saw some tombs and temples, including the tomb of Mahatma Gandhi.
After our sightseeing was done, we took two lovely AC sleeper trains back to Nagpur where we were welcomed by our old friends. It felt like we were being welcomed home ☺. We spent five more days on Nagpur campus, serving in the same ministries as before. On our last day, they had a goodbye ceremony for us and later some of the girls came by and gave all of us henna tattoos. We departed the night of the 22nd and had smooth travels and flight connections all the way through, which was quite the miracle in itself!
There is so much that I could say on the whole about this trip. The trip took all of us off guard and God broke all of our expectations, which turned out to be a great blessing once we processed through the initial frustrations. I can say without a doubt though that the past six weeks have taught me to be endlessly more thankful for every little thing in life. A big thing God taught me while I was gone was that I have so much to rejoice in and yet often focus on things that cause me not to. Even in the darkest times, at least I have a savior and a lover of my soul watching out for me and pulling me through. The Indian people we met have so much joy in even the smallest and simplest things, and amongst all of the difficulties and frustrations of travelling it was refreshing and encouraging to be reminded of the joy that is found in Christ.
I also learned a bit about spiritual warfare on this trip. In the midst of God working in my life and showing me the key to a joy-filled life, I felt great oppression, loneliness and even doubt in God and His truth. I’ve learned a lot through the process, including the importance of loving God with ALL my mind and strength. God has shown me a lot about the magnitude and reality of His love. Please pray for me as He brings me through this learning process! There may be pain in the night, but His joy comes in the morning!
Christ is sovereign and to be glorified in all that we do, even pushing a kid on a swing. He is our reward in heaven, we shouldn’t feel the need to or expect gratification from the things we do for God on this earth, though He is faithful and never fails to bless the lives of those who serve Him.
Praise God for all He did, all He is doing, and all the things He has yet to do! Thank you all for your blessing of praying for and financially supporting my team and I and for allowing me to have the honor of this awesome experience! As they say often in India: “God is good: all the time, all the time: God is good!”. (please check out www.teamindia2010.tumblr if you haven’t already).
With Love and Gratitude,
Kendall Robins :)
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
A Foggy Day in Londontown...
So... this post is technically about India... But I did get to spend an afternoon in London due to a missed flight on our way to India(Daaaang it ;)) AND as we were landing in London on the way back, it was a foggy day and it made me reminisce about listening to this Michael Buble song with my roommates.
Anyways... :) this is one of a couple/ a few posts I will write to update you all on INDIYUH! This first post will be more fun, the next will be more logistical and detailed!!
While I was in India I kept a daily(ish) journal on what happened and wrote "a lesson a day" for the number of days I was in India. I also wrote a list of things I will miss most and things I wont miss so much about India. Hope it can give you an initial feel of how the trip went :D.
Lesson #1: Don't ever kill a bug and leave it, it will get devoured by a trail of some 10 million odd ants...
Lesson #2: Always carry a flashlight.
Lesson #3: Bobby pins and hair clips make fairly decent clothes pins ;).
Lesson #4: Always take a rain jacket and sweatshirt to India... believe it or not you actually CAN get very cold and very wet.
Lesson #5: No matter how sketch other people might think it is, always bring a sharpened pocket knife or folding blade :).
Lesson #6: Palmfrond brooms make superb bug killing devices :).
Lesson #7: Always carry extra water and be prepared to roll with anything.
Lesson #8: Always be prepared... to be completely unprepared ;), there's no telling what could happen.
Lesson #9: Triple check that you have multiple contacts when you have a large group travelling through a foreign country who can speak both your language and the native language.
Lesson #10: Countertop cleaner (aka. Mr. Muscle) is very effective against giant flying Indian cockroaches!
Lesson #11: Never go for a walk without your camera!!
Lesson #12: Rain is one of the sweetest blessings!
Lesson #13: Always utilize your rickshaw room! 15 people in one is good ;).
Lesson #14: God is bigger than anything and mighty to save!
Lesson #15: Always wear A LOT of bug spray in a jungle...
Lesson #16: Never. Ever. Ever.... EVER even think about trying to drive in India... It's way too complicated :).
Lesson #17: Indians take tea very seriously :).
Lesson #18: The Truth of God is more powerful than Satan.
Lesson #19: Never make overly emphatic remarks about things to your hosts... they take them seriously to the extreme ;).
Lesson #20: God's Word is full of life and we must be rooted in it daily. He must become greater, we must become less!
Lesson #21: Take time daily to stand back in awe of God.
Lesson #22: The influences of a roommate do stick with a person, no matter how far away they go.
Lesson #23: No kind of deformity or physical ailment of this world can and should be allowed to lessen our joy in God.
Lesson #24: It is an amazing blessing to feed a mouth that cannot feed itself and rejoice and laugh with those that society deems as "handicapped".
Lesson #25: We can do nothing worthwhile or good apart from Christ, therefore He must be in control, supreme, and our source of joy.
Lesson #26: There are so many simple things that we take for granted in the states, like: consistent power, smooth roads, cars with forward facing seats, clean smells, digestive health... and the list goes ever on and on...
Lesson #27: Always be sure to give Alex Goedhart a guitar and have her improv a song ;).
Lesson #28: Goodbyes are always hard :/...
Lesson #29: It's not possible to get tired of naan (delicious Indian bread).
Lesson #30: We serve a Living God who hears and answers prayers.
Lesson #31: Don't let cross-cultural frustrations get in the way of your view of a situation.
Lesson #32: AC sleeper trains are da-BOMB!
Lesson #33: Almost anything tastes good on top of roti (Indian tortilla-like things :))
Lesson #34: Be prepared to feel foreign to your body by the end of a long trip.
Lesson #35: Take the time to appreciate the artistry and talent of others.
Lesson #36: British Airways' abbreviation is B-A for good reason ;).
Lesson #37: You can't beat jet lag... no matter how hard you strive against it, it will overcome...
Lesson #38: I must go back to England someday :).
Lesson #39: Always remember to thank God for all the blessings and gifts He bestows :).
Those are just some of the lessons I learned while in India :). Aaaand, here are two lists:
Some of the Things I Will Miss Most:
-Rickshaw rides through the cities.
-The mercy home kids.
-The dance and music of India.
-The fresh fruit (mangoesssss!).
-Cassidy Hursey and Sam Thompson. (two great people I got to meet on this trip!)
-Having so much free time to reflect on the Word and spend time with God.
-The Taj Mahal :D
-Having tea time 3-4 times a day :).
-The people!!
-The simplicity of joy there.
-Getting to work in their library full of centuries of Christian knowledge.
-The beautiful wood and metal work, or, in short, the ancient Indian architecture styles :).
-Hearing people's amazing testimonies!!
-Amazing coffee.
-The vast array of sounds that come out of vehicles when someone honks the horn.
-The market places ^_^.
-The COLORS!
-The elephants :).
-The wide array of interesting transportation.
-The friendliness, hospitality and kindness of the Indian people!
-The henna :).
-Getting to see God work in such a different way in such a different place!! :)
Some Things I May Or May Not Miss Too Very Much ;):
-unreliable power (aka unreliable sanctuary from the heat)
-unreliable plumbing
-unreliable source and amount of toilet paper.
-dehydration, diziness and nausea.
-the heat and humidity.
-the frustration of a big language barrier.
-the crowdedness.
-being treated like a pop star (aka: being stared at and taken pictures of all the time)
-getting sick.
-the cries of children as their parents drop them off and leave them at the mercy homes :(.
-the amount of trash and varrying smells everywhere.
Anyways... :) this is one of a couple/ a few posts I will write to update you all on INDIYUH! This first post will be more fun, the next will be more logistical and detailed!!
While I was in India I kept a daily(ish) journal on what happened and wrote "a lesson a day" for the number of days I was in India. I also wrote a list of things I will miss most and things I wont miss so much about India. Hope it can give you an initial feel of how the trip went :D.
Lesson #1: Don't ever kill a bug and leave it, it will get devoured by a trail of some 10 million odd ants...
Lesson #2: Always carry a flashlight.
Lesson #3: Bobby pins and hair clips make fairly decent clothes pins ;).
Lesson #4: Always take a rain jacket and sweatshirt to India... believe it or not you actually CAN get very cold and very wet.
Lesson #5: No matter how sketch other people might think it is, always bring a sharpened pocket knife or folding blade :).
Lesson #6: Palmfrond brooms make superb bug killing devices :).
Lesson #7: Always carry extra water and be prepared to roll with anything.
Lesson #8: Always be prepared... to be completely unprepared ;), there's no telling what could happen.
Lesson #9: Triple check that you have multiple contacts when you have a large group travelling through a foreign country who can speak both your language and the native language.
Lesson #10: Countertop cleaner (aka. Mr. Muscle) is very effective against giant flying Indian cockroaches!
Lesson #11: Never go for a walk without your camera!!
Lesson #12: Rain is one of the sweetest blessings!
Lesson #13: Always utilize your rickshaw room! 15 people in one is good ;).
Lesson #14: God is bigger than anything and mighty to save!
Lesson #15: Always wear A LOT of bug spray in a jungle...
Lesson #16: Never. Ever. Ever.... EVER even think about trying to drive in India... It's way too complicated :).
Lesson #17: Indians take tea very seriously :).
Lesson #18: The Truth of God is more powerful than Satan.
Lesson #19: Never make overly emphatic remarks about things to your hosts... they take them seriously to the extreme ;).
Lesson #20: God's Word is full of life and we must be rooted in it daily. He must become greater, we must become less!
Lesson #21: Take time daily to stand back in awe of God.
Lesson #22: The influences of a roommate do stick with a person, no matter how far away they go.
Lesson #23: No kind of deformity or physical ailment of this world can and should be allowed to lessen our joy in God.
Lesson #24: It is an amazing blessing to feed a mouth that cannot feed itself and rejoice and laugh with those that society deems as "handicapped".
Lesson #25: We can do nothing worthwhile or good apart from Christ, therefore He must be in control, supreme, and our source of joy.
Lesson #26: There are so many simple things that we take for granted in the states, like: consistent power, smooth roads, cars with forward facing seats, clean smells, digestive health... and the list goes ever on and on...
Lesson #27: Always be sure to give Alex Goedhart a guitar and have her improv a song ;).
Lesson #28: Goodbyes are always hard :/...
Lesson #29: It's not possible to get tired of naan (delicious Indian bread).
Lesson #30: We serve a Living God who hears and answers prayers.
Lesson #31: Don't let cross-cultural frustrations get in the way of your view of a situation.
Lesson #32: AC sleeper trains are da-BOMB!
Lesson #33: Almost anything tastes good on top of roti (Indian tortilla-like things :))
Lesson #34: Be prepared to feel foreign to your body by the end of a long trip.
Lesson #35: Take the time to appreciate the artistry and talent of others.
Lesson #36: British Airways' abbreviation is B-A for good reason ;).
Lesson #37: You can't beat jet lag... no matter how hard you strive against it, it will overcome...
Lesson #38: I must go back to England someday :).
Lesson #39: Always remember to thank God for all the blessings and gifts He bestows :).
Those are just some of the lessons I learned while in India :). Aaaand, here are two lists:
Some of the Things I Will Miss Most:
-Rickshaw rides through the cities.
-The mercy home kids.
-The dance and music of India.
-The fresh fruit (mangoesssss!).
-Cassidy Hursey and Sam Thompson. (two great people I got to meet on this trip!)
-Having so much free time to reflect on the Word and spend time with God.
-The Taj Mahal :D
-Having tea time 3-4 times a day :).
-The people!!
-The simplicity of joy there.
-Getting to work in their library full of centuries of Christian knowledge.
-The beautiful wood and metal work, or, in short, the ancient Indian architecture styles :).
-Hearing people's amazing testimonies!!
-Amazing coffee.
-The vast array of sounds that come out of vehicles when someone honks the horn.
-The market places ^_^.
-The COLORS!
-The elephants :).
-The wide array of interesting transportation.
-The friendliness, hospitality and kindness of the Indian people!
-The henna :).
-Getting to see God work in such a different way in such a different place!! :)
Some Things I May Or May Not Miss Too Very Much ;):
-unreliable power (aka unreliable sanctuary from the heat)
-unreliable plumbing
-unreliable source and amount of toilet paper.
-dehydration, diziness and nausea.
-the heat and humidity.
-the frustration of a big language barrier.
-the crowdedness.
-being treated like a pop star (aka: being stared at and taken pictures of all the time)
-getting sick.
-the cries of children as their parents drop them off and leave them at the mercy homes :(.
-the amount of trash and varrying smells everywhere.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Chronicles of India- Chapter 4
WOW.... I can't believe it, but in two days I leave to begin my journey, and after three I will be more than halfway across the world!!
It's amazing to see how far God has brought me through this process! He has brought me and my team through every obstacle, no matter how insurmountable they have seemed. It has become more and more apparent to us that this trip is ordained by God, and I cannot wait to see all that He does with it!!
Please, please pray for the 8 of us as we go to India!! Pray for health, for safety, for guidance and wisdom, for great compassion, and for all the little details, like luggage making it there, not getting things stolen, etc. There are so many little things that can go wrong with a trip like this, but all it takes is a little annointing in prayer, some faith in God, and He will take care of all of that!! :) Love you all, and thanks in advance for your support in prayer!!
for updates over the next month please visit http://teamindia2010.tumblr.com :)
It's amazing to see how far God has brought me through this process! He has brought me and my team through every obstacle, no matter how insurmountable they have seemed. It has become more and more apparent to us that this trip is ordained by God, and I cannot wait to see all that He does with it!!
Please, please pray for the 8 of us as we go to India!! Pray for health, for safety, for guidance and wisdom, for great compassion, and for all the little details, like luggage making it there, not getting things stolen, etc. There are so many little things that can go wrong with a trip like this, but all it takes is a little annointing in prayer, some faith in God, and He will take care of all of that!! :) Love you all, and thanks in advance for your support in prayer!!
for updates over the next month please visit http://teamindia2010.tumblr.com :)
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Chronicles of India- Chapter 3/ End of the year remeniscence...
So... IT'S THE END OF THE SEMESTER!! Finals are over for me, and summer has just begun!! It's crazy to think that I'll be in INDIA in under a month! 21 days to be exact! I can't believe where God has brought us with this mission team and this trip... here's a little update since the last post:
Our team had a 50% due date about a week ago- meaning, if everyone didn't have 50%, people and teams were going to get cut- and we made it! God was so good, and in one weekend He provided for each of us to get our 50% in.
Then we all applied to receive loans from the Student Missionary Union so that we could have all the funding in and just pay it back when we actually get money from our fundraisers.
So ya! we are all safe, officially going, and SO immensely excited! I got all of my shots, I almost have all of my malaria pills, and as I finished my finals today I was glad for the fact that I now, finally, have time to just focus on India!
Keep praying for us and for our preparation, spiritually, mentally and physically!
In other news... I'm HALFWAY done with college... SO crazy.
This has been one of the worst/most difficult/craziest/most rewarding/most amazing/most blessed years of my life so far. Honestly, it's hard to say what I feel about it... at times it's been hard to hold myself together, at times it has been difficult to just function as myself due to my attention and energy being split in many different directions. It's been a year full of mourning new and different things, and of learning about just how dark some places in this world can be... and yet, there have been times where I have laughed harder than ever before, times that I have felt so close to and so much love for the community around me, times where I just wish things could remain like this forever...
This year had so much packed into it that it's really hard to believe it was only a year. I'm going to turn twenty this summer... I'm an upper classmen in college now... My brother is getting married in a week... my life is changing, and I pray to God that that turns out to be an amazing, rewarding, and good thing.
It's been a long journey of a year, but thank God for all I learned in it, and thank God that it's over... now 3 months until I face the next one!
Our team had a 50% due date about a week ago- meaning, if everyone didn't have 50%, people and teams were going to get cut- and we made it! God was so good, and in one weekend He provided for each of us to get our 50% in.
Then we all applied to receive loans from the Student Missionary Union so that we could have all the funding in and just pay it back when we actually get money from our fundraisers.
So ya! we are all safe, officially going, and SO immensely excited! I got all of my shots, I almost have all of my malaria pills, and as I finished my finals today I was glad for the fact that I now, finally, have time to just focus on India!
Keep praying for us and for our preparation, spiritually, mentally and physically!
In other news... I'm HALFWAY done with college... SO crazy.
This has been one of the worst/most difficult/craziest/most rewarding/most amazing/most blessed years of my life so far. Honestly, it's hard to say what I feel about it... at times it's been hard to hold myself together, at times it has been difficult to just function as myself due to my attention and energy being split in many different directions. It's been a year full of mourning new and different things, and of learning about just how dark some places in this world can be... and yet, there have been times where I have laughed harder than ever before, times that I have felt so close to and so much love for the community around me, times where I just wish things could remain like this forever...
This year had so much packed into it that it's really hard to believe it was only a year. I'm going to turn twenty this summer... I'm an upper classmen in college now... My brother is getting married in a week... my life is changing, and I pray to God that that turns out to be an amazing, rewarding, and good thing.
It's been a long journey of a year, but thank God for all I learned in it, and thank God that it's over... now 3 months until I face the next one!
Friday, April 23, 2010
Chronicles of India- Chapter 2
Once I was welcomed onto the team, we all had our first team meeting together. It was awesome to meet the other seven people that I would be spending the next few months working beside. And yet, there was something not quite so awesome about the meeting.
We found out that each of us needed to have $330 by that friday... meaning, two days later.
Why, you ask? We had to put down a downpayment for our flights and pay the Mission Union, all of this adding up to more than three hundred dollars.... In TWO days...
We all looked at our leaders wide-eyed when they gave the announcement, but leaving that room at 11'oclock that night, I had a courage and purpose in my heart to try my best to gather/make as much money as I could the next day, since Wednesday was the only time I had to do anything about it.
Wednesday morning I woke up, a little anxious and nervous about what the day would hold. As I was praying, I realized that $330 dollars was something I didn't have and could certainly not accumulate on my own, so I boldly prayed out of faith that God would completely take this day in His hands and bring me the $330, that I could not do it, and that I had faith that He certainly would.
So I woke up in the morning... and I didn't live my life like a newly popular hip hop song, but I did post signs all over my floor saying that I would be doing henna all day in my room, and that anyone could get a tattoo for $3.
Then I went to classes, having already made about 7 appointments with girls on my floor for henna, I felt amazed at how God was already working.
I had also shot out emails to a few different groups of people: I therefore had scattered meeting with friends and a meeting at 9 at my church with the choir I had just recently joined.
Long story short, I did TONS of henna, I was running across campus all day, and it was the most busy day of my life. BUT, by 6:00 I had somehow, by God's grace, accumulated $180! So crazy. And I knew that I had that meeting with my church in just a couple hours.
So, a bit before 9, I hopped in my car and jetted over to my church. Now, I felt so uncomfortable doing this, and almost turned back multiple times. I hardly even know this community yet, and I felt so weird asking anything of them, let alone large sums of money (obstacle 1).
I got to the church and obstacle 2 hit: the doors were locked. I could see the choir... so close, yet so far! So, I determined that I wouldn't let that phase me, and waited. Thank God, someone finally came out, saw me, and let me in.
Then, of course, obstacle 3 hit. The rehearsal was supposed to be over at 9, and I was supposed to go tell them about my trip (the choir director had invited me to when I sent him an email). Only problem was, by 9:15, they were still going strong, and I had a meeting I had to be at at 9:30.
I felt so torn and so uncomfortable, but despite the strong urge to just give up and leave, God cemented my heart in that pew and held me there until they finally concluded at 9:30.
So I took a deep breath and made my way up to the stage, to stand in front of 50+ almost complete strangers who were all much older than me. I took another deep breath, and began to tell them about my trip, my passion for what God was doing, and my need.
It was extremely uncomfortable, but I was completely transparent and helpless in front of these people, stepping out in the faith that God wasn't having me do this for no reason.
And you want to know what? I was NOT for no reason :) with God I honestly don't think anything ever is!
As I was walking off the stage, a man from the band said he wanted to cover the whole $330! And I was hardly able to step off the stage before I was bombarded with hugs, prayers, encouragements, wise words amongst other things like checks and large bills (not the bird kind mind you ;)).
One of the women said an amazingly true thing to me: "I know it's difficult and uncomfortable, but how is the Body of Christ supposed to meet a need if they don't know about it."
After saying many thanks I walked out of there in awe of God and the amazing community that I didn't even know existed before that moment! I was so encouraged and stunned that I didn't even care to look at the wad of money that I had stuffed in my backpack.
I took the money straight into my leaders and the missions office.
Later that night, I found out the sum of money... The church alone had given me just under $500.00!!! That plus around $200 that I had made earlier....
I can't even accurately describe the feeling of utter awe that I had in God for the rest of the night... for the rest of that week, for the rest of my life I'll carry that memory with me.
God is SO good! Or, as one of my professors said this week, "God is the goodest good, far gooder than what our word 'good' can describe". He never ceases to amaze me, and His provision just affirmed in me even more the knowledge that India is exactly where I am supposed to be this summer, no more doubts about it!!
You know, it is SO difficult to live day to day on complete, blind faith, and I figure not many of us actually ever experience the purity of that. That one day, perhaps the first day I had ever experienced it fully, was so legitimately amazing that I know for a fact I shall never forget it, nor the mightily capabe hand of God.
And, Praise God, two weeks later, my team on a whole has $10, 400.00 of the $28,000.00 that we need to have by around the end of May. PRAISE GOD! He is providing so much for us, and being so faithful in encouragement.
Continue to pray for us as we proceed on this crazy adventure God is leading us through!
Namaste,
~Kendall
We found out that each of us needed to have $330 by that friday... meaning, two days later.
Why, you ask? We had to put down a downpayment for our flights and pay the Mission Union, all of this adding up to more than three hundred dollars.... In TWO days...
We all looked at our leaders wide-eyed when they gave the announcement, but leaving that room at 11'oclock that night, I had a courage and purpose in my heart to try my best to gather/make as much money as I could the next day, since Wednesday was the only time I had to do anything about it.
Wednesday morning I woke up, a little anxious and nervous about what the day would hold. As I was praying, I realized that $330 dollars was something I didn't have and could certainly not accumulate on my own, so I boldly prayed out of faith that God would completely take this day in His hands and bring me the $330, that I could not do it, and that I had faith that He certainly would.
So I woke up in the morning... and I didn't live my life like a newly popular hip hop song, but I did post signs all over my floor saying that I would be doing henna all day in my room, and that anyone could get a tattoo for $3.
Then I went to classes, having already made about 7 appointments with girls on my floor for henna, I felt amazed at how God was already working.
I had also shot out emails to a few different groups of people: I therefore had scattered meeting with friends and a meeting at 9 at my church with the choir I had just recently joined.
Long story short, I did TONS of henna, I was running across campus all day, and it was the most busy day of my life. BUT, by 6:00 I had somehow, by God's grace, accumulated $180! So crazy. And I knew that I had that meeting with my church in just a couple hours.
So, a bit before 9, I hopped in my car and jetted over to my church. Now, I felt so uncomfortable doing this, and almost turned back multiple times. I hardly even know this community yet, and I felt so weird asking anything of them, let alone large sums of money (obstacle 1).
I got to the church and obstacle 2 hit: the doors were locked. I could see the choir... so close, yet so far! So, I determined that I wouldn't let that phase me, and waited. Thank God, someone finally came out, saw me, and let me in.
Then, of course, obstacle 3 hit. The rehearsal was supposed to be over at 9, and I was supposed to go tell them about my trip (the choir director had invited me to when I sent him an email). Only problem was, by 9:15, they were still going strong, and I had a meeting I had to be at at 9:30.
I felt so torn and so uncomfortable, but despite the strong urge to just give up and leave, God cemented my heart in that pew and held me there until they finally concluded at 9:30.
So I took a deep breath and made my way up to the stage, to stand in front of 50+ almost complete strangers who were all much older than me. I took another deep breath, and began to tell them about my trip, my passion for what God was doing, and my need.
It was extremely uncomfortable, but I was completely transparent and helpless in front of these people, stepping out in the faith that God wasn't having me do this for no reason.
And you want to know what? I was NOT for no reason :) with God I honestly don't think anything ever is!
As I was walking off the stage, a man from the band said he wanted to cover the whole $330! And I was hardly able to step off the stage before I was bombarded with hugs, prayers, encouragements, wise words amongst other things like checks and large bills (not the bird kind mind you ;)).
One of the women said an amazingly true thing to me: "I know it's difficult and uncomfortable, but how is the Body of Christ supposed to meet a need if they don't know about it."
After saying many thanks I walked out of there in awe of God and the amazing community that I didn't even know existed before that moment! I was so encouraged and stunned that I didn't even care to look at the wad of money that I had stuffed in my backpack.
I took the money straight into my leaders and the missions office.
Later that night, I found out the sum of money... The church alone had given me just under $500.00!!! That plus around $200 that I had made earlier....
I can't even accurately describe the feeling of utter awe that I had in God for the rest of the night... for the rest of that week, for the rest of my life I'll carry that memory with me.
God is SO good! Or, as one of my professors said this week, "God is the goodest good, far gooder than what our word 'good' can describe". He never ceases to amaze me, and His provision just affirmed in me even more the knowledge that India is exactly where I am supposed to be this summer, no more doubts about it!!
You know, it is SO difficult to live day to day on complete, blind faith, and I figure not many of us actually ever experience the purity of that. That one day, perhaps the first day I had ever experienced it fully, was so legitimately amazing that I know for a fact I shall never forget it, nor the mightily capabe hand of God.
And, Praise God, two weeks later, my team on a whole has $10, 400.00 of the $28,000.00 that we need to have by around the end of May. PRAISE GOD! He is providing so much for us, and being so faithful in encouragement.
Continue to pray for us as we proceed on this crazy adventure God is leading us through!
Namaste,
~Kendall
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